So, after years of procrastinating and membership renewals and failing my basic theory evaluation not once but twice (to the shock of many, but I swear the evaluation was tenfold harder than the real test), and also not getting my PDL straight after passing my basic theory test coz I couldn't make out the letter below 6 or something along that line - which meant I failed even my eyesight test when it didn't occur to me that I might need to bring along my spectacles. Now that I have converted to become a private candidate, I was practically trawling the net for a good auto private driving instructor who, at the very least, got to be responsible. Found one and booked two slots with him for the month of June, and I finally got to drive on the road for the very first time today!! - WHICH WAS AWESOME, even tho I was going at like 30km/h, and braked too hard the instructor bounced back in his seat, and was concentrating on the road in front so much so that I couldn't even make casual talk and didn't even for once check the rearview mirror, and couldn't really make a good turn coz I kept crossing my hands - fuck the steering wheel - and the instructor's feedback was that I was not too bad for a first timer. Hmm, I think he meant "at least the car moved" ?????
I remember when I first learnt swimming when I was really little, the coach wanted us to swim to the deep ends one day. I mean, we were alr taught the strokes needed to make us move when in water, but Idk, it's just psychological I guess - to be afraid of the unknown, of the things that you have yet to try and still cannot help but feel like you can do it, coz in reality you can. You just have to do it, even if you are afraid, or even if you suck at it. Coz practice makes perfect.
I guess I just wanna write a short post in this space here to remind myself of how far I have came (coz learn driving journey alot of obstacles huh - adeline would agree), and to not give up (like, again) coz I really wanna drive for real this time round, and not just because everyone else is learning (or has passed and accumulated years of driving experience, dang) - it's like, you don't just give up so easily on the things that you want coz if you want it enough, you will get it. So, basically this is me motivating myself, xx