芷冰: October / Octover

Who knew October could be this tough? And who knew how two persons could be so bad for each other? I wrote this eight-page entry in my tangible diary of how everything came together and then fell apart and it was the most cathartic thing ever. Coz I didn't even wanna try giving myself excuses or analyze what went wrong when and how. Maybe nothing went wrong (we were wrong itself) and maybe you did the only right thing. I only find it hard to let go becoz days weeks months will pass and we will be so busy living our lives so much so that I will cease to exist even in your memory. But I always remember everyone and everything and boy, that is my tragedy. Then again, it felt like a best friend breakup more than anything else and so for the first and last time, goodbye goodbye goodbye. 我也可以给你自由 (:

Feel like doing up a post now coz hey, maybe the next time you see this space updated would be like december ??????? I actually have a shitload of work to do and if I ever catch myself slipping back into the nua nua sad state I might as well just slip into oblivion forever. And is it apparent that Im very active on twitter now? HAHAHAH even more so than in my poly days I reckon. It's just that I don't think I will get to be like the way I am now / can be now when I leave school and start work - it's like Im trying to ..... hold on to youth. But of coz when it comes to social media, things will eventually balance themselves out (at least for myself). Wanna share something Tay Ping Hui said in an interview he did with M Lifestyle (Oct 2015 issue) - "If everyone eliminates that fear of being out there, Singaporeans will explode in terms of innovation, intellectual and political maturity and emotional stability." I like that.