Hey there, Im back here in this space to close out the year and welcome the next (: I actually feel a little like Im intruding my own personal space seeing how LONGGG it has been since I last updated proper, I really thought I would just let this blog fade off or something. In any case, let's just say that the past year hasn't been too bad.
On the work front, I have hit my two years milestone in my current company. I don't OT till 9pm, 10pm, 11pm anymore. In fact, I have been knocking off on the dot at 6pm for the past three months or so. Recruitment has really slowed down alot in Q4, and I don't expect it to pick up in the first half of next year. I want to focus more on Training, and I probably finally have time for this much neglected function.
Relationships wise, still single (for the past decade, might I add haha). Broke off from my lunch group of 1.5 years. So much drama and negativity and I so happened to be caught in the midst of it all, I don't even have to wait for the new year to walk away from toxic situations. It's a pity, but Im moving on. As always, I could have spent more time with my grandma, and meet up more with the poly girls. I need to get it into my head that life is finite and time slips away much faster than you can count the minutes and seconds on the clock. I don't want to be that kind of person who says that this person matters, but do not actually make the effort to spend enough time with them. To be really present when in their presence. This so much I have to change.
On a more personal front, I exceeded 60kg for the first time in my entire life up till now. It's a no brainers that one of my goal for 2020 is to get myself back into shape (at least a 55kg let's go!) I travelled a few times this year too. To Hanoi with xinyi (most chillax trip ever). To Turkey with Sis and her friends (not as enjoyable as I would have liked, and they are a drama rama bunch too oops). To Jakarta with ohana (more trips together pretty please). Also, is feeling jaded about travels a valid condition ??? It's like, I have been to so many places the past ten years or so, and obviously there are alot more places and lands that I have yet to set foot on, but I don't get excited about travels like before. There's no place I have in mind if anyone was to ask me right now "where would you love to travel to next" I have no idea where, I have no feels to plan out any itinerary, I probably would prefer to just stay at home and read / netflix. This is wrong right. Like Im still young and how people always say the world is your oyster. I ranted about this whole sick-of-travelling thing to a colleague and he suggested I try out overseas volunteering work. And right away, I know this is something that I can do. I might not have thought about it first (why didn't I ??!) but suddenly, getting on a plane is meaningful again. Im over the first-time-on-an-airplane / first-time-travelling-alone-with-a-friend / first-time-travelling-solo phases. Im truly blessed to be able to even travel that much, but I hope to find joy in my travels again. To that end, I will finish off all my travel posts and pick up from where I left off (Taiwan 2018). Writing about my travels might just be the best way to digest my experiences of distant lands and hopefully in the process, I find gratitude and purpose again.
On the money front, I definitely need to cut down on unnecessary expenses like food deliveries (mcdonald, pastamania, delifrance, umisushi, QQ rice ... just freakin' walk to get caifan alr!!) and grab rides (but Dad got us a car, so I hope I save a little more as compared to grabbing every single day at peak hours ??) I have been driving for a month or so, and I need to say that Im now much more confident on the roads and at parking. Not super duper skilful, but good enough for someone who only got her driving licence in 2018 and have totally forgotten how to park for the most part of 2019 ??? I know that I have been adulting ever since I started working, paying my own bills etc. but I actually feel like a real adult + more responsible now that Im driving. Hmm, what kind of ego mechanism is at work here I wonder.
And in the coming year, I hope to learn something new. Coding maybe, I have been toying with that idea for quite some time. Also, to get my Advanced Open Water licence as well. I have also started on this bullet journal thing instead of buying my usual Moleskine planner and Im pretty pumped doing up some spreads to prepare for the new year. I don't want to feel intimidated to come up with pretty spreads that have consistent themes and are insta-worthy, but I definitely want to make the system works for me, and to make the bujo my own (: So to more journalling, and to more blog posts!
I hope that you have a pretty great year ahead and that you open yourself up to new experiences which can only ever do you more good. Till then, xx
