Hi blog, so long. Finals ended yesterday, which also spells the end of a cray cray semester. It had been cray cray only coz I decided to give a fuck to pulling that pathetic GPA up and I did put in considerably more effort than I used to. In fact, October and November flowed into each other it was actually possible to NOT feel a sense of time. Project meetings on Friday mornings before going for my french class, after which I would join them again and we would usually end at 9 or 10pm (we stayed till 12am once, the horrors), and also going back to school on Saturdays etc etc. All these just for one module. Effin' CLAN is really effin' I told you. Also, I could still remember feeling down for quite some time when I failed my first french test, and the whole learn-a-foreign-language experience got worse when it came to the speaking test. We had to do it in pairs and I genuinely thought I could partner with this girl who sat at the same table. I think the rest of the class thought so too, even the instructor. But she wanted to pair with someone who doesn't want to SU the module, coz the fact that I wanna SU implies that I might not put in my best effort. I understood. But so much for that excuse, coz she had heard me speak french before. Whenever I thought of how the instructor had wanted me to read french texts out loud a wee bit more often than some others maybe coz I failed my first test, I always sigh a little inside. In short, everyone knows everyone else's standard. And my spoken french sucks. In the end, the instructor paired me up with an exchange student from Germany I could really cry coz I'm not that good with accents I was afraid we couldn't communicate in english, let alone french. In fact, I did cry in school when I recounted the whole thing to Sis. Please don't tell me I thought way too much into it or she hadn't meant it that way, coz I was pretty sure I had been looked down upon.
But I guess there's always a silver lining. Dad would always fetch us home whenever we stayed back late, except that one time we took taxi back for it's past midnight. So ever thankful. And he got to chat with bubbly Kt, which was nice coz his daughters don't speak much lol. And all those long days in school weren't without its fair share of laughter! The three of us would entertain ourselves with dirty jokes (like guys like that sia haha), bringing up our eyecandies every now and then, and just confiding in each other about how stressed we were (people everywhere with that one drop of tear rolling down their cheek). So so glad those never ending project meetings were with the girls, at least projects didn't feel so much like a chore anymore. And that speaking test, lol. That exchange student's called daniel anyway. He had such mesmerizing green eyes hahaha I didn't know until I sat next to him. And whenever we didn't get each other, we would just d'accord (french for okay) our way through. But I managed to pass that speaking test and the second written test. I know this sounds petty, but I got one mark higher than the girl who didn't want to pair with me. Coz thanks but no thanks for making me cry. And right after class, I overheard her consulting the instructor about SUing the module. Really?!
So that's my 动荡的学期 for you. So much for giving a fuck, coz this is how school is like. I guess my final year would be less taxing coz I would only need to register for four modules, instead of the usual six which is wayyy too much. But anyhoo, I will forever miss HC3013 + Year One Sem One. A picture of the nightmare module class below, coz no matter what, it's still helena gao (: Partly also in remembrance of my eyecandy this semester lmao
A little update on the past half a year:
✭ Took this CEI-KAH test in early July and passed on my first try ✌
✭ Worked in UE for the whole of July before the semester started I'm still not quite sure how I feel about it
✭ Mum's godpa and her birth dad passed on a few days before and after my birthday this year respectively. We hadn't been really close but they were related to my mum and it's complicated but nevertheless, death is a sad thing. Inevitable, and sad
✭ Vendor for a day at Lucky Plaza flea, chaotic much
✭ Stayover at Pq's two weeks into the start of the semester (how come it felt like eons ago) Always being silly with my potatoes ^^
✭ Weekend bkk trip with the ohana, pray and shop a lot, we even saw jesseca liu (!!)
✭ First mani-pedi session in whut six years (??) lol but immediately regretted my mani color, even got around to painting a new color over it myself
✭ Signed up for ballet lessons with adeline and her mum, but I don't feel graceful at all hahaha anw got too bogged down by schoolwork I only attended three lessons (?!)
✭ Saizeriya opened just one street away from home. This was exciting news for Sis and I coz that was where we loved to eat at a few months back when we were at Beijing and Shanghai, sooo value for money we always order too much. In short, Saizeriya's our 乡愁
✭ That bitch finally moved out of the house, and two days later we have loansharks come harassing us. Bitch is bitch, no wonder even her siblings didn't want to have anything to do with her
✭ Was conducting a verb test with random ntu students for the nightmare module and one participant turned out to be this fellow math tuition mate from church. That one period of time I went to church back in my Sec four days, going for math tuition under chuweikian cher, and this funny guy of the same age damn nice to me lol but walau eh, we couldn't even recognize each other today. Imagine me singing "tell me the tales that to me were so dear / long, long ago long ago ..."
✭ And I'm so ever sorry for forgetting your birthday adeline :( still very 过意不去
Alright, I feel so much better after writing everything out. Maybe not everything but still, till then xx